Do not let emotions drive you, rather let the spirit lead you.
"So i say, Live by the Spirit and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature" - Galatians 5:16
Churches need to be warned, people need to be warned, Your activity not only reflects upon you, it reflects upon God. So if you are in the world. Stop it. If you are living for yourself. Cease. And turn back to him, In repentance and in faith. Offer yourself to him as a holy and living sacrifice,